| | I am all strung out right now. I've got just a few too many assignments due, and a few too many concepts un-comprehended. But most of all, I'm still reeling from yesterday with Payden. He flew down from NC to break his lease, so I spent Saturday night with him once I got off work. As much as I want the best for him, I can't hide the fact that I don't want him to go. And even though I'd love to leave Florida with him, I can't let my calling go to voicemail. I've got opportunities here! I've got to keep my GPA up, you know? I want to finally get involved with my campus the way I never did in high school. I want all of the professors to know my name.
But I guess I can be grateful for all of this, even though it hurts; Its showing me how much I care about him. I can hardly wait to finish my degree. Its going to be a long year without him. I wish I had an outlet. I want to dance, or skate, or swim... I want to punch something until my fist bleeds. I've got too much emotion boiling over in me.
Tomorrow will be a day of many cigarettes.
Tomorrow will also be a grind:
I've got to print my Calculus problems and fill them out at 8am.
Then I have to meet with Uyen before running down to Biology lecture.
After that I'll be reviewing in Chemistry for Wednesday's test.
Jamie will be driving me to the Downtown lab so we can finish up Tuesday night's lab.
At 2:40 I'll be starting my first calculus test, and if there is still work to be done downtown I'll head back over there.
Then I've got to catch a bus at William's Park, where homeless people fucking sleep on the sidewalks at night :/
And then I've got to finish my lab report!
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| | Posted 1/31/2010 9:03 PM - 12 Views
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